无奈

生病了。。。
又要吃一大堆恶心的药。。。
有时还蛮讨厌自己的身体。。。
像他们所讲的“豆腐”。。。容易生病。。。
几时？自己的抵抗力才会提高。。。
很辛苦叻。。。“动不动又生病”。。。
就要开学了。。。
难道。。。
自己的抵抗力也变得和某人拥有同样的习惯--临时抱佛脚？？
明知就要开学了。。。还让自己生病。。。
哎~生病了。。。没有心请继续写。。。
只希望自己能在开学前复原。。。

如果时间遗忘了
请你一定要记得带我离开

终于

日历。。。换新了。。。
新的一年快到了。。。
下个星期一就开学咯~
不知道为什么。。。突然觉得很不舍得这个假期。。。
haizz。。。

今天。。。去学校咯。。。
9.00开始。。。我们前15分钟就到了。。。
多人到~
全部都像我。。。东望西望。。。呵呵
新生必须坐在台前。。。而且是地上。。。
这句话，让我听到后。。。真的很想杀人！！！
都说是新生咯。。。还敢亏待我们！（气“死”）
更过分的是。。。竟然还让五个人轮流致词。。。
喂~体谅下我们啦。。。你们在台上舒服地坐着。。。
我们却在台下“受煎熬”。。。要睡不能睡，要躺不能躺。。。
就快变僵士了！！！
还好到最后。。。还有一些精彩节目。。。
不然你们就“死定了”！（某人也不知道怎样死。。。=P)

他们说孤单是一种享受。。。
但。。。我一点也做不到！

紧张。。。

啊!!!
来了~  来了~
明天就是准备"坐牢"的一天。。。呵呵〉。〈
超紧张的~。~
哎~（又叹气了）
上了中学。。。没有时间online了。。。T.T
有。也只有星期六或日了。。。
太不公平了！
不过。。。也听"大人"说过。。。
上了中学比较轻松。。。是真的吗?
中学生，给点意见啦。。。
某人太需要你们的意见！！！（这次没有说慌．．．＞．＜）
多多益善哦。。。呵呵

我不哭，不代表我没眼泪
我不气，不代表我没脾气
我不喊痛，不代表我不痛
我不说,不代表我不介意
而是因为。。。我爱你

无聊...

慢长的假期又要开学了。。。
后天要去学校的orientation。。。
很紧张。。。又很害怕。。。
害怕没有朋友。。。害怕赶不上学业。。。
OMG!很多数不完的害怕。。。
救命啊~
天啊!求你派一个十全十美的人给我吧!
我已经很体谅您了。。。知道您不可能下凡。。。
所以才求您这样做。。。您看!我是不是很"乖"。。。(太妄想了>。<)
我没有别的要求了。。。please。。。哈哈^^""


HAIZZ。。。废活!
说真的。。。瞒害怕的。。。
听说那里的压力很大。。。
某人有点后悔当时"死"都要进那间学校。。。
算了!反正都进到了。。。现在退学?更加来不及。。。


还是在里面好好地当个乖乖女吧!
加油!加油!加油!

GATHERING

昨天去韵如家住。。。
下午的时候，就和"干姐"玩得不意乐乎。。。
"干姐"说晚上要唱歌所以没有留下。。。
唉。。。很不舍得。。。
不过还是很开心啦!
因为在那短短的几个小时内，我和韵如都当了一个"sukarela"。。。
帮她"美化"指甲。。。呵呵

这就是我的"杰作"!!!哈哈。。。
过后。。。
我和韵如的另外一个"姐妹"来了。。。
这个姐妹一年里最多只见两次面。。。
haizz。。。
当然有拍照留恋拉。。。

我们三姐妹。。。少了一个。。。很可惜。。。

某人偷拍了一张。。。希望某人看见了不会生气喔。。。呵呵
这就是我们亲爱的"干姐"了。。。


那天。。。
某人第一次破记录。。。
竟然在凌晨4.30才睡。。。(一直和姐妹玩电脑:P)
erm。。。大概是10.00才起床。。。(虽然平时早睡迟起)
所以。。。算起来应该只有5小时半的睡眠。。。呵呵

不明白。。。

haizz~
昨天晚上收拾那些刚买的书。。。
哇!全部厚厚大大本的。。。
还没翻开书皮，就没心情再去翻开下一页了咯。。。
真不明白。。。
那些在中学PMR,SPM...全都A的同学。。。
到底是怎样念书的?
看到这样厚的书。。。还会有心情?
唉哟。。。不要想这样多啦!

今天是Christmas eve。。。
明天就是圣诞节了。。。
好好放松自己吧!
享受"一下"圣诞的气氛。。。(虽然自己不是Christian...呵呵)
唉!好想跟朋友一起庆祝最后一年的圣诞喔。。。
但是。。。
应该没有人提议吧?
算了。。。只好留下一辈子的遗憾。。。

祝大家
      美丽 克力思默思
           Merry Christmas
                           ^^

何时，再回来
还未来得及感慨
你已在不经意间离开了

开心。。。

开心咯!!!
终于进到Catholic High School 了!!!
Yeah!!!
今天早上去Catholic报到。。。
真的给那边的工作人员"炸到"。。。
竟然告诉我们今天没卖书。。。
ok!算了咯。。。下次再来买。。。
哪里知道。。。
刚走出学校门口，遇见一个aunty。。。
看到她拿大包小包，就去问她从哪里买。。。
讲什么在书店买。。。一大堆啦!(没听进耳，只有爸爸在听。。。)
我们又走回去学校买书。。。walao!太阳晒到~
不过。。。还好啦~
可以看帅哥。。。
呵呵。。。开玩笑的啦。。。^^

还有一个忘记写了。。。
那间学校大到~
熟人都会迷路。。。
惨了!
我这个路痴。。。
开学不懂要怎样去问路?!?!?

sorry ya!今天写到没有什么水准。。。><"

很多人
不需要再见
因为只是路过而已

遗忘
就是我们给彼此
最好的纪念

倒霉。。。

前天，跟妈妈去买中学的校服。。。
唉。。。
选了半小时才选到。。。呵呵。。。
没办法啦!
某人的基本习惯就是。。。
临时抱佛脚。。。做事速度倒数第一!!!
结果，出来时。。。
"晴天霹雳"，倾盆大雨，天不作美。。。
车子又泊在很远。。。
算了!冲过去吧!
>>>back<<<
还没"冲"之前。。。
那里的工作人员借了我们一把伞。。。

虽然雨伞太小，
但是。。。
某人太感激你们了!!!
谢谢!谢谢!
没把某人变成"落汤鸡"。。。

haizz。。。
最近总是下雨。。。
无聊啊!
下雨不能开电脑。。。不能开电视。。。
真是的。。。
生活还有什么意义?
哈哈。。。

让?

忍够了!!!
大的要让小的。。。
这句话。。。
一天里。。。
少听一句都比登天还难。。。
什么都让!让!让!
那我不是"一无所有"?
事实上，那是我的。。。
到最后。。。
还是会变成在弟弟的名分上。。。
真的不能再忍了!!!
你们常说我身在福中不知福。。。没分寸。。。
也对。。。
我现在是非常幸福。。。但是我一点也不快乐。。。
快乐是自寻的。。。
我也试过放松自己。。。让自己在这个家庭里。。。
找回一些属于自己的快乐。。。
可是。。。
我一点也做不到!
刚坐下，又被你们呼来唤去。。。
有时。。。
你们也太敏感了吧?
我不回应。。。可能是因为我没听见。。。
你们也不需要怪我气你们。。。当做耳边风。。。
有一次。。。
我的确是气你们。。。
出尔反尔。。。是你们习惯吗?
UPSR前。。。
你告诉我说让我玩电脑。。。至到我"爽"。。。
你有吗?
两小时的时间。。。
这不是我要的数目。。。

以后。。。
你们尽管要打要骂。。。
随你们。。。
我会"乖乖"地让你们发泄。。。

我只想要

我好想抱着你诉苦 却显得好无助
无助的让人想痛哭
我只想要和你在一起
朝着幸福走去
像恋人般的简单甜蜜
我只想要和你不分离
。。。
黄色丝巾是想念
在树上被风吹
孤单的孤单一个人无法沉睡
。。。

这部分的歌已经完全代表着我的心声了。。。

放弃你。。。

对!我承认!
我是曾经喜欢过你。。。
可是。。。
我从没打算过要让你知道。。。
就算已经让你知道了。。。
你会有感觉吗?
还不是一样。。。
在我的面前，到处去告诉朋友，你讨厌我。。。
你知道吗?你曾经一次一次地把刀捅进我的心里。。。
像是你亲手把我推进伤心的世界里。。。
又把我从那可怕的地方救了回来。。。
你对我的忽冷忽热。。。我都习惯了。。。
虽然。。。
我不知道，我在你心里是怎样的一个人。。。
但是。。。
我会努力地学着放弃。。。忘记。。。你。。。
。。。成全你们!


难道。。。。。。
喜欢一个人，一定要有原因吗?
你就不允许我，这样不知不觉地喜欢上你?


我再也不是那因为你而哭泣。。。
因为你而寂寞。。。
因为你而委屈自己的笨蛋了!


从今。。。
我一定要让自己学会坚强。。。

baffle day...

HELP ME!!!
got a facebook's friend want me to be his girlfriend...
please...teach me how?
i just bluff him i already got a boyfriend...
but he still want...even say don't let my boyfriend know it...
OMG!how?
i don't like him...he is only my friend...
and his age elder than me 6 years!
i have no courage to tell him that i don't like him...
i scare will hurt him...
why i always like that oneT.T...this is the second time...
somebody can help me?!?!?
please...
in the beginning...
i thought he was kidding...
how i know?
he say he is serious...I'm so scare after he say this to me...
i scare if i refuse him...he will hate me or not my friend already...
I'm so cowardice...

如果这样能让你快乐,我愿意真心成全你...

TO:a boy

u think very funny meh?
call your friend to play me with your phone...
say what like me,want me to accept your friend...
EWWWW!!!
i won't stupid until will accept you...
i know u so happy after kidding me, right?
ya...i know playing people very fun...
but very hurt people,u know?
luckily,we already graduate,won't see each other again...
but...i will remember what you do to me!!!

graduate trip

FUN FUN FUN!!!
at there...
i can meet my friends again...so happy...
n i also know many friends there...(but don't know their name)
we went to many place like...
erm... many lar...don't know how to say...
anyway...
i really very happy these days with my friends...
BUT...
gt one things i haven't "complain" is...
the PSP...
I HATE HER!
so nausea...
and some more sleep in our hotel room...
u all know a???
after she bath...
she just throw her shirt,tower...on the floor!!!
OMG!
halo?
u think that one is your house a?
simply throw!
u know how many people hate u a?
YUCK!!!
if you all interest in her ho?
tell me lar...
i can tell you one by one...

isn't i wrong?

sometimes...
i really hate my parents...
they can do anything they like...
how about me?
"can i go out with my friends?"
"NO!"
both of them always like that...
two words:N,O
that's why these day i become so nonchalance to them...
ya...all is my mistake...(parents are always right)
OMG!can i know what is fair?
u all think i already forget?!?!?!
how can you all read my diary without my permission?!?!?
u know that day when i saw you all are reading my diary...
i cry immediately...
how can parents reading daughter's diaries?
everybody have their own privacy,isn't?
if i read your diary ...
how you will do?
scolding me,right?
anyway...

nope

long time no post already...

5 days didn't touch my computer...how can it be?!?!?!haha...

these 5 days...

went to Penang and Thailand with family...

quite fun...

i bought many shirts there...because the shirts there very cheap!!!(happy)

next Tuesday...

going to the graduate trip...

but now catch a cold already how to go?!?!?

luckily still got 4 days to pulih...

he didn't go to the graduate trip...

IDIOT!

 I'm bringing up him again...haizzz

i think i cant forget him...

miss you...

maybe...

i no change to see you again...

on the graduation day,i didn't say goodbye to you...

I'm so sad...i just saw you walk away from my heart...

with your friends...

now...

i try to forget you...erase you in my heart...

y?you hurt me again and again...

that day...

i cry...you laugh at me...

can i hate you?

whatever...

i just hope you can never never appear in my live...

graduation day

today is our last day in SJKCSUBANG...
so sad...T.T
i thought today i wont cry because i play happily with my friend in the morning...
when i go up to pentas to shake hand with teacher...
i started to cry...
i very very bu she de my friends and teachers...
after today,we wont see each other again...(you yuan zai jian)
SAD!!!
i cry like hell!i cant forget them FOREVER!!!

result UPSR...

today...
UPSR result out already...
i got 7A's...so happy...
happy until want to cry already but i also didn't cry...hehe...
some friends got 5~6A's...they so sad...
(don't sad lah...)T.T
"gong xi" my friends who take good result!
some teachers also cry...don't know why...i saw them cry i also think to cry...
tomorrow is our graduation day...so happy and sad...
the STUPID headmaster say cannot bring camera...but i still bring...i wont listen to the headmaster!!
i just hope tomorrow i wont cry...HOPE!

confuse...

i think...
i still like him...(little bit)
how?how?
want to separate already still like him?!?!?!?!
ARRRRR...
STUPID!!!
now,how? people go to another school leh...
now still like people...
only got three day together...T.T
just now,recess that time i saw he borrow XXX(girl)'s book...
i so makan cuka, you know ?
i think u don't no because you thought i don't like you already,right?
i so scare...i scare when i see you on the graduation day i will cry...
when you pulang the book to her that time...you know?she smile so happy...(MAKAN CUKA)
haizzz...i will try to don't like you,miss you...
i hope you say that your girlfriend is not her...
BYE...you really CRUEL...

the next day...

we are back!
after wake up...we go eat breakfast...the "delicious" breakfast is a KRIM BREAD...
mmm...so tasty...(vomit)everyday bread bread bread...
i eat until half den i thrown away...dont say me waste because it really no taste...
go climb the what mountain...my leg patah already!!!but the view on top of the mountain so beautiful ...haizzz...if i can bring camera i now already is uploading all the photos...
then go down...we still need to walk half an hour to reach our Broga camp...so penat..
play games again...so tired but very fun!
at about 4.30p.m.,we go back to school...our group felt very happy because won the most bekerjasama prize...
in the bus,we sleep...i very she bu de all the kakitangan there, they are so friendly leh...i almost cry when i on the bus...

Semenyih camping

this camping took two days...14&15 November...
on Saturday...i 5.45a.m. only wake up because damn difficult to wake up at that time...
den...my eye hitam until like 'panda'...haha... go to school already i still so tired...haizzz... we took the air conditioning bus...but like no air conditioning...so hot!!!
walauA i sit cannot move already...satu jam setengah leh...
we play many games like flying fox,rock climbing,rope...(i forgot already this word) and many many lar...
at night,gt the what competition lo...our group d boy performance until half forgot how to do already...den i scold him ...hehe
then we slept at about 11.30p.m. like that...tomorrow need to wake up at 5.45a.m...same same...
stay tuned...

going to leave each other...

still left 5 days time with my friends...
after these 5 days i have to separate with my friends...
go to a new school...having new friends...some more a strange place...
can i just always stay in standard 6 and ever ever leave them?
i really miss them...ex specially somebody...
haiz...maybe this is a faith to everybody...
i think,after we separate i will miss all the different memories during me and my friends...
i just wanna say goodbye to my friends...and wont waste the time together...